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I want someone who makes me feel the way Anthony did. I don’t want Anthony, per say, but I want someone who made me love him like he did. Anthony has set the bar. He made me feel loved first and far most. When we were good, we were great. He put me first. He made me feel protected, small in a way. Not a lesser me, but he made me feel like he was there for me, I shrunk in his arms. He made me want to be all that he wanted. He made me nervous just by being on my mind. If I even had the slightest possibility of seeing him my heart would try to jump from my chest. And if he walked my way my knees literally got weak, I didn’t know that really happened, it did when I was with him. He made me lose myself in his voice, his laugh, his smile. I want someone who made me fall in love like he did. Because I fell, hard. I could be my complete self around him. I could say the stupid shit and he would look at me and laugh. Not at me, but because he loved me. And even when he did the things that I found annoying, I really didn’t mind. He smacks on his food, he rubs his feet together when he sleeps, and he always tries to take the cover. But when he does those things surprisingly I don’t want to smack him, I’ll just roll my eyes and think about how much I love him. I saw myself marrying him, I literally had our whole lives planned out. And once upon a time, he saw himself with me too. Falling in love with him taught me what love is. And even though we’re not together right now and probably never will be again, I’m glad I had him in my life. After 3 years of being friends, loving him, falling in love with him, hating his fucking guts, and everything in between, I wouldn’t trade our experience for the world. Anthony Marcellous Marquis Green, you have set the bar high and I won’t settle anymore until I find someone who makes me feel the way you did or better. Thank you.
